Blaahh!!

Okay so I've been feeling absolutely crappy these last few days due to the flu bug. This is not an update as such since today is my last day of work and I have a lot of stuff to finish up ... well that and the fact that I am in no mood to blog today due to waking up at 3:30am this morning with a sinus pain from hell, nothing to put in it and therefore remaining awake until the alarm went off at 6am this morning. So to say I'm running on empty is the understatement of the year.

I would, however like to say one thing. Tammi and hubby congratulations on your absolutely adorable little girl Caitlin True - I am amazed at how much she looks like mommy which was something we could even see in the last 3D. I have never seen a 3D where the resemblance is THAT clear. May this tiny little being bring you much joy and happiness in the years to come my friend xoxo

Belly Question

Okay so I've been comparing my belly this week to last week and based on mine and a few other opinions - it definately looks a lot more round - dr said yesterday that baby's head was semi-engaged and its amazing the difference it makes to the shape of the tummy - unless of course he did the final drop before this picture.

Below the first pic is my 34 week belly and the second was taken yesterday at 35 weeks: [click to enlarge]

It's official!!! I'm carrying a little Buddha

Okay so this morning I get a call from my dr. asking if I can come in for a check-up at short notice because there is a new 3D / 4D scanner doing the rounds in town and between the local dr's they each get to try it out for a week or so before committing to buying it. Dr. is trying to book all his patients in this week so we can all get a turn on it. I was lucky number 1 and considering he didn't really know how to work the thing I really got some clear shots.
At one point, however, my blood pressure took a dive and he had to quickly put me on my left side before I passed out. My skin was completely wet and I could hardly hear the conversation in the room. But after coming right we got straight back to work. Another good thing is that baby's head is semi-engaged - yay!!!! Min dae!!

Unfortunately I only have two because dr was so confused with how the machine worked and I had a splitting headache from the dips in my blood pressure so just wanted to get up.
Here are the pics:

Thought for the Day

I thought this was f'ing hilarious maaan

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29 Days - the countdown begins

Let me start with my check-up on Friday. All went well and baby is growing like an absolute champ ... it appears that due to my healthy placenta and appetite my body naturally grows 'em rather large. He was weighing in at a whopping 2.7kg's at 34 weeks and after calculating that since the previous app. he had put on approx. 230g per week - I have estimated his birth weight to be in the region of about 3.7kg's. This I can deal with because Morgan weighed 3.6kg's at birth and for me was a perfect size. We noticed a lot of vernix floating around in the water ... a sure sign that baby is gearing up for birth so I was pretty pleased about that. Dr also mentioned that he went to a conference and they were shown a new state-of-the-art 4D scanner that he is considering buying. So each gynae in our area gets the use of the machine for a week to see if they like it. He took down names of patients that were interested in having a 4D done (including mine) and said his receptionist would contact us with a time to come in that week and have a free scan done. Yippee!! So I DO get to see baby one more time.

I am really starting to feel the effects of being in the late 3rd trimester and have found myself crying on three different occassions for really stupid reasons. We went shopping on Sunday to buy Morgan's birthday present and I kept feeling pins and needles in my legs and had to hold onto shelves for support before I passed out. It felt as if there was not enough oxygen going to my legs and in turn to my head so obviously baby was lying on a nerve or even better ... he has dropped? When we got home I went and lay down on the bed and hubby took over the cooking of a beautiful lunch of lamb shanks (he used a recipe in Jamie Oliver's cookbook), with roast potatoes and lots of vegetables .... and get this ... he didn't ask me ONCE to help him even though he is still getting over his nose op from last Wednesday and at the time of cooking had a splitting headache as he needed to do a drain of the sinisus again. Anyway I was very grateful for this selfless act and after lunch we both climbed into bed and he fell promptly asleep. Later I made a nice chocolate cake for Morgan to wake up to on Monday morning - and I just left him to chill and flick through sports channels. 7:30pm we had tea and chocolate cake with fudge icing yummmmmyyy!!!

Yesterday was Morgan's birthday but she had already received the clothes we bought for her and the doll - which I bought on Saturday. This doll has such realistic facial expressions and cries when you remove the dummy and when you put it back it makes sucking noises and the eyes close and open until it falls asleep, at which point the stomach moves up and down and it breathes peacefully.... very cool. I thought it would be appropriate because she has taken to playing dolls again now that the thought of having a baby in the house has become a reality to her. DH bought her a (wait for it) ... game of chess????? [insert confused expression here] - I told him he was crazy cause IMO that was the most boring game on earth and he said he used to enjoy it and would teach her how to play ... hmmm [watch this space] - we took her to spur last night and she got the usual birthday song sung to her by tired staff that look like they've done this once too many times - but she enjoyed her day all in all and mommy managed to put her own aches and pains on hold for her special little girl.
The killer is still coming up on Saturday - her birthday party which is at the house and she has about 10 friends coming. I woke up at 4:30am this morning and was doing lists in my head of what I still need to do etc. I have ordered the jumping castle but still need to order the cake, sweets, adults food - HELP!!! Any ideas on easy snacks would be most welcome... All I want is for her party to be a great success and then for it to be over so that my last (work) hurdle has been crossed. Well the last official hurdle will be 19 June which is my last day of work - OMG I can't wait to just park off with my feet up all day - bliss!!!

I need to get something off my chest and not too sure how to put into words so if I sound at all like I do not appreciate this pregnancy with every ounce of my being then please be assured that this is definately not the case. I have spent 35 weeks waiting to get to this point now - where I can actually see the finish line. Happy and a little envious when friends (online and others) have crossed over and met their little bundles already ... wishing it was me, willing the weeks to fly by. Well.... here I sit - 35 weeks pregnant (with number 3 no less) and suddenly ... I'm not so sure I want it yet!!! I'm not ready!! I'm shitting myself here!! I've suddenly hit a downer and through glimmers of excitement, fear is the overriding force right now. Why am I feeling like this?? What is wrong with me?? Does this make me a bad mother to my little boy? Am I sinking into a bit of depression or is it just natural towards the end to suddenly question what the hell you are doing and what made you think you wanted to do this? Honestly? right now the impending arrival of this baby has got me so worked up and I just wonder if I am good enough to be a super-mom to all three of them. Either way this baby is coming and I need to pull myself together and do what mom's do best .... just try to be a great mom by doing what comes naturally and the rest will hopefully fall in place.

Morgan Jade - A birth story

Before I start on the birth I wanted to post a picture of my belly then and now:

Then at 36wks


Now at 34wks




I decided since I have been looking at my daughter's birth photo's a lot lately that I would do a post on her birthday. I was booked in for a c/s on Monday 9 June 2003 but found myself being extremely emotional the weekend before this date and shortly after lunch on Sunday afternoon I started getting labour-type cramps. I was, of course, busy blow-drying my hair and doing some last minute make-overs so absolutely refused to believe that this was in fact it. I remember telling my husband I would not go to the hospital as I wanted to look good for the photo's and I continued blow-drying my hair. Needless to say I had to keep stopping the hairdryer and doubling over in pain until the contraction passed. Hubby was by this stage, pacing up and down the room and telling me to call the midwife - which I decided at that point it was best to do. Straight to the hospital she advised - you are in labour and we need to get you prepped for your c/s. So off we went nervous as all hell and the pain gradually getting so bad that by the time I was in the hospital bed with the monitors on me I could not communicate at all through the contraction.

They had a fine time trying to get the spinal block done since my contractions were by that stage coming so close they would just get ready to put the needle in and I would have to tell them I was having another contraction.
It all worked out in the end but both hubby and I were so damn nervous God only knows how he managed to take the photo's that he did.

Below are a few pictures of the birth and one or two of her a few weeks afterwards.

Winnie the Pooh theme


Her Head is born


First big cry


Bless this little face!!!!


Wow - 3.6kg's!!


Mommy content and in love


Mom and Dad amazed at what we grew


Sucking her thumb


My heart is no longer my own ..

Sister Love

Jahni inspired me to do a post about sister love. Not so much a post but pictures of our lives together .... amazing how deceiving these pictures are however - since we look blisfully happy.... but the minute mom's back was turned it was back to kicking, scratching, shouting - basically everything short of killing..

Still love you chez - you're my favourite sister in the whole world ;o)

I am the short one with the bloomers on show


I am the unfortunate one with the spider on her head


School days


Primary School play "The Wizzard of Oz" We were both good witches - I am in the blue


...and a fairly recent pic of the two of us enjoying a glass or 10 of wine.


While Im at it I feel the need to add a picture of me some years ago before falling pregnant with my youngest daughter .... and I often wonder to myself - will that ever be me again or have I simply reached my sell-by date?